|Don't Turn Around|
|Season 1, Episode 8|
|Air date||November 19, 2011|
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Glee: The Next Generation: "Don't Turn Around"Edit
So here’s what you missed on Glee: The Next Generation.
Jaxon met James, who transferred from Carmel and they fell madly in love. But now James’ evil ex Archie, lead singer for Vocal Adrenaline, has set his sights on getting James back. Bella and Hallie have been best friends since they were like five, but now they’re dating, much to Bella’s other best friend, Miles’ dismay cuz he has a major crush on her. India is an all around bitch who used Evan, but he finally dumped her and moved on. India moved on, too. She’s the co-captain of the Cheerios with her nemesis, Rose. That isn’t working out so well. Breezy has a crush on Evan, who is crushing on Jaxon. This love triangle may have just became a love pentagon. And Lucas has a crush on his best friend Louis, but he hasn’t told anyone. But he has sang about it.
And that’s what you missed on Glee!
Jaxon fiddled with his locker, trying desperately to open it. Finally, it swung open. Jaxon grabbed his math book and started toward the classroom.
“Hey, Jaxon,” Declan said.
“Hey, what’s up?” Jaxon asked, giving Declan five.
“Today, it’s official. Your parents have adopted me and I’m officially your older brother. I even legally changed my last name to Pierce. Porterhouse is connected to all the bad memories. So, I figured new start, new family, new name.”
Jaxon smiled. “That’s great. We’re officially family now.”
“So I was wondering if you could do your new brother a solid?”
“Sure. What’s up?”
“I have a major crush on this girl, but every time I try to talk to her, it’s like she doesn’t wanna talk to me. You’re in Glee club with her. Maybe you could talk to her and ask her to go on a date with me?”
“I could try. Who is it?”
“Oh, just Honey Berry.”
“Good luck with that one. A lot of guys have asked Honey out and very few have succeeded. None have gotten a second date. To say she’s selective would be an understatement.”
“Please, Jaxon. You two are friends. Maybe she’ll listen to you. It’s like I don’t even exist to her. I’m flying under her radar.”
“Okay. I’ll talk to her. But I can’t promise anything.”
“Thank you so much!” Declan said, hugging Jaxon in the heat of the moment. Jaxon looked awkward.
“Do you always hug your gay friends like that?” Jaxon asked.
“You’re my only friend, Jaxon. Most kids avoid me like the plague just because I’m a foster kid who’s mother died of an overdose and I don’t even know my father is. Besides, I am confident enough in my sexuality to be okay with hugging you. Especially since we‘re family now.”
“Good to know. And really, if people gave you the chance, they’d see you’re a great guy. But, being my new brother is gonna come with a popularity boost. I am one of the two most popular guys in school.”
“Anyway, I got to get to Chemistry. I’ll see you after Glee Club. I’ll be waiting.”
“See you,” Jaxon said.
Will and Emma walked together into the cafeteria. Coach Beiste was already sitting at their table, chowing down on a whole chicken. Will looked at her as he took his seat.
“Keeping your strength up?” Will asked.
“You bet, Will. I can’t risk breaking our perfect record this year. I’m proud of my boys. Especially that Kevin. Kid is a great quarterback. He and Jaxon are like our one-two punch. Miles is doing pretty good as a wide receiver. I just don’t think his heart is in it. It’s like he isn’t happy playing that position. I know he wanted to be the quarterback, but he just didn‘t have the focus or a level enough head.”
“Sectionals is in two weeks,” Will said. “I have the opportunity to bring three guests. I’m taking Kurt because he’s my consultant. And Emma, of course. But then I was wondering if you wanted to come, too. You‘ve been such a good friend and a godsend with helping me with Glee Club auditions.”
Coach Beiste nodded. “Sure. I’ll be there to support my two best friends as well as my boys on the football team.”
“Great,” Will said. “It would be an honor to have you there.”
“Are you kidding? It’s a honor to be there,” Beiste replied.
Sue Sylvester sat in her chair, watching the Cheerios practice. Disappointed, she raised her megaphone.
“Lawrence, you call that a cartwheel? Hit the showers!”
A blonde girl slumped off toward the locker rooms as everyone looked shocked.
“Aw, Megan,” a girl said, disappointed.
“We barely won our cheerleading Sectionals! This squad has a lot of work to do! GET IT TOGETHER!”
India and Rose stood in the front, their hands on their hips.
“Your timing was off,” India said.
“Well you forgot some of the moves,” Rose replied.
“I’m going to try to wash away the stench of your failure,” Sue said. “I really could care less what you do.”
Sue grumbled as she left the football field. Most of the Cheerios followed suit, leaving India and Rose.
“You’re gonna cost us Cheerleading Regionals,” India said.
“My timing was off but at least I was doing the right moves. If anyone is gonna cost us, it’s you,” Rose replied.
“Well, we just have to keep practicing,” India said.
“Good idea,” Rose said, pressing play on her boom box.
Pat Benatar’s “Hit Me With Your Best Shot” began to play. Rose placed her hands on her hips and walked toward India.
“You’re a real tough cookie with a long history,”Rose sang. “Of breaking little hearts like the one in me. That’s okay, let’s see how you do it.”
“Put up your dukes,” India sang. “Let’s get down to it.”
“Hit me with your best shot,”they sang. “Why don’t you hit me with your best shot? Hit me with your best shot. Fire away.”
“You come on with a come on, you don’t fight fair,” Rose sang.
“That’s okay, see if I care,” sang India.
“Knock me down, it’s all in vain.”
“I’ll get right back on my feet again.”
“Hit me with your best shot,” both girls sang. “Why don’t you hit me with your best shot? Hit me with your best shot. Fire away.”
“You’re a real tough cookie with a long history of breaking little hearts like the one in me,”Rose sang.
“Before I put another notch in my lipstick case,” India sang. “You better make sure you put me in my place.”
“Hit me with your best shot.”
“Come on, hit me with your best shot.”
“Hit me with your best shot.”
“Hit me with your best shot,” Rose and India sang. “Why don’t you hit me with your best shot? Hit me with your best shot. Fire away.”
Rose stopped and turned. “Finally you got the moves right.”
“You finally got the timing right,” India replied, her nose in the air. “First time for everything.”
Will walked into the choir room and took his place in front.
“Alright, everyone. As you know, Sectionals is just two weeks away. We need to start brainstorming for our setlist. Any ideas?”
Jaxon raised his hand. “We’ve done some really good, strong group numbers so far. I think we should do one of those again, but rework it for Sectionals.”
“Good idea,” Will said. “What else? We need three songs in total.”
“We need a really strong, well loved classic for the duet,” Evan said.
“Good idea, Evan,” Will said. Breezy looked at Evan, impressed. She smiled warmly at him and he returned the smile.
“Alright, guys, we need one more group number for Sectionals,” Will said. “I want to focus on our group dynamic and I need a song that’s good for that. So, keep brainstorming.”
“‘Dynamite’ by Taio Cruz,” Lucas said.
Will wrote Lucas’s suggestion on the dry erase board.
“‘Edge of Glory’ by Lady Gaga,” Breezy suggested.
Will wrote down Breezy’s suggestion. “What else?” He asked.
“‘You Make Me Feel’ by Cobra Starship and Sabi,” Miles suggested.
“‘Til the World Ends’ by Britney Spears,” James suggested.
Will scribbled both suggestions down on the dry erase board.
“Anybody else have any suggestions?”
“‘On the Floor’ by J. Lo and Pitbull,” Evan suggested.
“‘Smile’ by Avril Lavigne,” Hallie suggested.
“‘Bailamos’ by Enrique Iglesias” Honey added.
Will wrote down Hallie and Honey’s choices. He looked at Jaxon and Bella. “You two are my co-captains. What are your ideas?”
“‘I Turn to You’ by Christina Aguilera,” Bella said.
“‘With Arms Wide Open’ by Creed,” Jaxon said.
Will wrote Jaxon and Bella’s choices on the dry erase board. “Any other ideas? India, we haven’t from you or John.”
“I think we should do a classic from an artist from my home country. I nominate ‘Across the Universe’ by The Beatles.”
“I’m thinking a rock anthem of some kind,” John said. “Maybe ‘Na Na Na’ by My Chemical Romance.”
Will nodded as he wrote both songs on the dry erase board. “We’re off to a good start here, but I still haven’t heard from everyone. Kevin? Rose? Nicole?”
“‘Can You Feel the Love Tonight’ by Elton John,” Kevin replied.
“‘Blow’ by Kesha,” Rose suggested.
“‘Believe’ by Cher,” Nicole said.
Will stopped scribbling and stepped aside to reveal their choices.
The Edge of Glory
You Make Me Feel
Til the World Ends
On the Floor
I Turn to You
With Arms Wide Open
Across the Universe
Na Na Na
Can You Feel the Love Tonight
Will capped the dry erase marker and set it down. “Okay, guys. There are our choices. I want you guys to take your time and think this over and I want an answer three days from today. That should give you time to think it over and think over what group number we’ve done so far to do again. Jaxon and Bella, as our team captains, I expect you to come up with the duet and the two members to sing it.”
Jaxon and Bella nodded. “Yes, Mr. Schue.”
As Evan walked toward his locker, Breezy decided to go talk to him.
“Hey, Evan,” Breezy said.
Evan looked up. “Hey, Breeze.”
“You know, I was thinking maybe we could pitch a song to Jaxon and Bella to use as the duet. I mean, neither of us qualify for the solo, but it would still be fun to have a hand in helping them out.”
Evan nodded. “Yeah, it would,”
“So, I was wondering if maybe you’d like to come over to my house tonight and we could brainstorm something.”
Evan nodded. “Sure. Is this a date?”
Breezy quickly interjected. “Oh no, no, no. I mean, like I don’t even think of you that way.”
Breezy laughed nervously, struggling to be convincing. Evan noticed.
“Good. Cuz I wouldn’t want for it to be a date anyway,” Evan said.
Breezy felt her heart sink. “Good then. Then it’s set. But it’s not a date.”
“Not a date,” Evan agreed, disappointed not to see Breezy anymore upset than she appeared to be.
“So what time is this non-date?” Breezy asked.
“How about six?” Evan asked.
“Yes, six then,” Breezy said as she smiled and awkwardly walked away.
Jaxon waited for Honey outside the choir room. Honey saw Jaxon and smiled.
“Hey,” Jaxon replied. “I was wanting to talk to you for a minute.”
“Sure,” Honey said. “I have time.”
“There is this guy. He’s a friend of mine. And he really likes you but he feels like you don’t even know he exists.”
Honey laughed. “Jaxon, I thought you were gay.”
“I am…and deeply in love with James.”
“Good. It’s just any conversation that starts with ‘I have this friend’ is usually about the person speaking and they’re too afraid to admit it.”
“No, it’s really a friend of mine. Actually, my brother.”
“Declan?” Honey asked.
“Yeah. He really likes you and wanted to me to see if you’d go out with him sometime.”
“I don’t know. I usually don’t associate with jocks. He plays basketball and soccer, so that’s like a major jock.”
“He’s not like other jocks, Honey. He’s a really sweet guy. He was raised in foster care and was adopted by my parents. He’s sweet and sensitive. You two are a lot alike, down to being adopted.”
Honey thought for a second. “I guess you’re right. I’ll give him a chance. I know you’d never steer me wrong, Jaxon. If he’s as good as you say he is, he deserves a chance. Tell him I’m free Friday night for a movie and dinner and we’ll go from there.”
Jaxon smiled. “Thanks, Honey. He really deserves to be happy for once. I’ll tell him.”
Honey patted Jaxon on the back as she walked off. Evan and Declan walked up to Jaxon. Declan watched Honey for a second, then looked at Jaxon.
“Did you ask her?” Declan asked.
“I did. She’s willing to give you a chance. She’s free Friday night but she wants dinner and a movie.”
Declan smiled. “Cool. I think the new Robert Pattinson movie is playing. Girls like him, right?”
Evan chuckled. “Girls love him. And some guys, too.”
“I think it would be a good idea,” Jaxon said.
Declan gave Jaxon a high five. “Thanks, man. I so owe you.”
Declan waved goodbye at Evan as he walked off.
“Jaxon, I’m thinking about coming out to my parents. I’ve told all of you guys in Glee Club and you’ve been so accepting of me. I think it’s time I took the next step.”
“Just be careful, okay? Sometimes your parents aren’t as accepting. Mine have been, but I know of a few people who’s parents weren’t. I don’t want you to get hurt is all.”
Evan smiled. “When I do decide to do it, will you help me?”
Jaxon nodded. “Yeah. Of course.”
“Thanks, Jaxon. You‘re a good friend.”
Bella and Hallie had stayed behind in the choir room. Bella thought it would be a great time to try and work on a duet for Sectionals.
“Bella, you are so great with Eva and Ethan. I love you a lot, but Miles has been really messed up since we started dating. He’s been anti-social, withdrawn. I think that maybe I’m not what you need. I think you should be with Miles.”
Bella raised an eyebrow. “Does this mean that we’re breaking up?”
Hallie lowered her head. “Yeah. Bella, I’m so sorry. But me and you are best friends. Maybe we’ve just confused those feelings. And we’ll always have our friendship. But you and Miles, you guys don’t have that.”
“I understand what you’re saying, Hallie. It still doesn’t make it hurt less.”
Bella grabbed a songbook and thumbed through it. When she found something she liked, she handed it to the band.
“Play this,” Bella said.The music began and Bella smiled at Hallie.
“I know you know this,” Bella said.
“It used to be a favorite song of ours.”
“I will survive without you,” Hallie said.
“Don’t tell me that you wanna leave,” Bella said.
“Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa,” they sang together. “Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa.”
“If you wanna leave, I won’t beg you to stay,”Hallie sang. “And if you gotta go, darling, maybe it’s better that way.”
“I’m gonna be strong,” Bella sang. “I’m gonna do fine. Don’t worry about this heart of mine.”
“Walk out that door,” Hallie said. “See if I care. Go and go but--”
“Don’t turn around,” Bella and Hallie sang. “’Cause you’re gonna see my heart breaking. Don’t turn around. I don’t want you seeing me cry. Just walk away. It’s tearing me apart that you’re leaving. I’m letting you go but I won’t let you know. I won’t let you know. Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa. Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa.”
“I won’t miss your arms around me,” Hallie sang. “Holding me tight.”
“Holding me tight,”Bella sang. “And if you ever think about me, just know that I’ll be alright.”
“I’ll be alright,” Hallie sang. “I’m gonna be strong. I’m gonna do fine. Don’t worry about this heart of mine.”
“I will survive,” Bella said.
“I’ll make it through,” Hallie said. “I’ll even learn to live without you.”
“Don’t turn around,”Bella and Hallie sang. “’Cause you’re gonna see my heart breaking. Don’t turn around. I don’t want you seeing me cry. Just walk away. It’s tearing me apart that you’re leaving. I’m letting you go but I won’t let you know. I won’t let you know. Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa. Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa.”
“I wish I could scream out loud,” Hallie sang. “That I love you. I wish I could say to you don’t go.”
“As she walks away,” Bella said. “She feels the pain getting strong. People in your life, they don’t know what’s going on. Too proud to turn around--”
“She’s gone,” Hallie and Bella said together.
“Don’t turn around,” Bella and Hallie sang. “’Cause you’re gonna see my heart breaking. Don’t turn around. I don’t want you seeing me cry. Just walk away. It’s tearing me apart that you’re leaving. I’m letting you go but I won’t let you know. I won’t let you know. Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa. Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa. Don’t turn around. ’Cause you’re gonna see my heart breaking. Don’t turn around. I don’t want you seeing me cry. Just walk away. It’s tearing me apart that you’re leaving. I’m letting you go but I won’t let you know. I won’t let you know. Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa. Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa.”
The music ended and Bella looked at Hallie. “This is how you really feel? It’s really over?”
“Bella, I feel like a burden to you. Miles could give you so much more than I can give you. You deserve to be happy and be young and free. You don’t deserve the burden of two little kids and a messed up girlfriend with tons of emotional baggage. You don’t. Miles is the best person for you, even I see that. He can give you all the things I never could. And knowing that you’re with me when I can’t give those things to you would tear me apart more than breaking up with you. This is what’s best.”
Bella nodded. “I understand. And I could stand here and argue the counterpoints to everything you just said, but deep down inside, I know I’d be wasting my breath. So, I guess it is over.”
Bella exhaled deeply as she turned around and walked solemnly out of the choir room.
Lucas sat his books down on the bench in the locker hallway as he opened his locker. He exchanged some books, grabbed his off the bench and headed toward the exit.
Azimio walked down the hallway, his attention immediately caught by the composition notebook lying on the bench. He grabbed it and looked at it. It was Lucas’ journal. Azimio opened it up and thumbed through it. He smiled, mischievously.
Azimio looked around to make sure no one saw him take the journal and he headed toward the teacher’s lounge. He opened up the photocopier and pressed the open journal facedown. He pressed the copy button and laughed as dozens of copies spilled out into the tray.
When they were done copying, he took the pages and slid one into the crack of each locker.
When he was finished, Azimio headed out the door and chased down Lucas.
“Hey, Luke, you forgot your notebook,” Azimio called out.
Lucas turned around, going pale. He ran over to Azimio. He yanked his journal out of Azimio’s hands.
“You didn’t read it, did you?”
“I can honestly say that nothing in there was any of my business,” Azimio said.
Lucas let out a sigh of relief. “Thank God. And thank you for returning it to me.”
Azimio watched as Lucas ran off to join Evan and John. Azimio let out a quiet laugh.
“But it’s about to be the whole school’s business.”
Evan waved good-bye at John and Lucas as they reached Breezy’s house, which was conveniently located in walking distance to both the school and his house, as he had been grounded from his car following the fight at school.
Evan knocked on the door. Breezy answered it.
“Hey, Evan. Come on in.”
Evan smiled nervously as he entered Breezy’s house. It was bigger than his, a little fancier. Breezy didn’t seem like a rich girl. She was down to Earth and far from spoiled. Evan’s family was also pretty well off, but Breezy’s house had a French mansion feel to it. Very art oriented.
Breezy took Evan’s hand. “Well, come on, let’s go to the music room.”
“You have a music room?” Evan asked, in awe at his surroundings.
“Yes. My parents are classically trained musicians. They’ve worked for some big name artists. Celine Dion, for example.”
“Wow,” Evan said. “My parents are just doctors.”
“So, what song did you have in mind to present to Jaxon and Bella for the Sectionals duet?”
“I’m a big Counting Crows fan and I was thinking ‘Accidentally in Love.’ It’s a good song, well loved, and great energy.”
Breezy smiled. “I love Shrek.”
“I kind of forgot my guitar,” Evan said.
Breezy pointed to the corner of the music room. “I have some you can play.”
Evan smiled as he walked over and picked out a guitar. He took a seat on a stool behind the microphone stand. Breezy grabbed another microphone stand from the corner and took her place beside Evan.
Evan began to play an acoustic version of the song. Breezy smiled.
“An unplugged cover? I like it.”
Evan smiled. “So, she said ‘what’s the problem baby,’” he sang. “What’s the problem, I don’t know. Well maybe I’m in love, love. Think about it every time I think about it, can’t stop thinking about it.”
“How much longer will it take to cure this,” Breezy sang. “Just cure this ‘cause I can’t ignore this if it’s love, love. Makes me wanna turn around and face me but I don’t know nothing about love.”
“Come on, come on, turn a little faster,” Evan and Breezy sang. “Come on, come on, the world will follow after. Come on, come on, because everybody’s after love.”
“So I said ‘I’m a snowball running,’” Evan sang. “Running down into the spring that’s coming. All this love melting under blue skies belting out sunlight, shimmering love.”
“Well baby I surrender to the strawberry ice cream,” Breezy sang. “Never ever end all of this love. Well I didn’t mean to do it but there’s no escaping your love.”
“These lines of love mean we’re never alone,” Evan sang. “Never alone, no, no.”
“Come on, come on, move a little closer,” Evan and Breezy sang. “Come on, come on, I wanna hear you whisper. Come on, come on, settle down inside my love. Come on, come on, jump a little higher. Come on, come on, if you feel a little lighter. Come on, come on, we were once upon a time in love. We’re accidentally in love. Accidentally in love. Accidentally in love. Accidentally in love. Accidentally. I’m in love, I’m in love, I’m in love, I’m in love, I’m in love, I’m in love. Accidentally. I’m in love, I’m in love, I’m in love, I’m in love, I’m in love, I’m in love. Accidentally. Come on, come on, spin a little tighter, Come on, come on, and the world‘s a little brighter. Come on, come on, just get yourself inside my love. I’m in love.”
Evan sat the guitar down and stood up. He and Breezy looked into each other’s eyes for a moment. Without knowing what came over them, they both leaned forward and kissed.
Rose waited for Kevin to get done with football practice, leaning against the chain link fence. Kevin smiled as he saw her.
Rose smiled. “I was thinking that maybe we could give things a try again. I’ve seen how good you’ve been doing in class, Glee Club, and football. Your mind seems to be on the right things for a change.”
“I really do miss you, Rose.”
“Well, it’s just a trial thing. I wanna go out, but only as friends. I wanna see for myself if you’re really ready.”
“I understand, Rose. Thanks for believing in me when I didn’t believe in myself. And thanks for giving me a chance.”
Rose nodded. “You’re welcome. Just show me that you’re ready to make it work this time. That’s all I ask.”
Rose wrapped her arms around Kevin and hugged him.
Jaxon waved at Rose and Kevin as he walked off the field and toward the school. He looked up and before his eyes was Archie Carmichael, carrying a big bouquet of flowers and a large box of chocolates. He handed them to James.
Rose looked over at Jaxon and looked back at James and Archie. “Jaxon, I’m sure it’s not what it looks like.”
Jaxon shook his head, fighting back tears as he ran to the one place where he knew he could deal.
Jaxon sat in a chair in the middle of the stage, the spotlight the only light in the auditorium. He had to think things over. Sitting here, on this stage with only the band, the only thing he could bring himself to do was sing.
“Feeling broken, barely holding on,” Jaxon sang. “But there’s just something so strong somewhere inside of me. And I am down, but I will get up again. Don’t count me out just yet. I’ve been brought down to my knees. And I’ve been pushed way past the point of breaking. But I can take it, I’ll be back. This is far from over. You haven’t seen the last of me. You haven’t seen the last of me. They can say that I won’t stay around. But, I’m gonna stand my ground. You’re not gonna stop me. You don’t know me, you don’t know who I am. Don’t count me out so fast.”
Jaxon stood up from the chair and pushed it aside. “I’ve been brought down to my knees. And I’ve been pushed way past the point of breaking.”
Jaxon walked to the front of the stage. “But I can take it, I’ll be back. This is far from over. You haven’t seen the last of me.”
The door opened and Archie walked into the empty auditorium. He leaned against the back wall, watching Jaxon from the darkness, unnoticed.
“There will be no fade out. This is not the end. I’m down now but I’ll be standing tall again. Times are hard but I was built tough. I’m gonna show you what I’m made of. I’ve been brought down to my knees. And I’ve been pushed way past the point of breaking. But I can take it, I’ll be back. This is far from over. You haven’t seen the last of me. No, no, I’m not going nowhere. I’m staying right here. Oh, no, you won’t see me begging. I’m not taking my bow. Can’t stop me now, it’s not the end. You haven’t seen the last of me. Oh no. You haven’t seen the last of me. You haven’t seen the last of me.”
Archie walked down the aisle, toward the stage, clapping. Jaxon looked up, surprised.
“That was brilliant,” Archie said. “I could really feel the pain.”
“What do you want?” Jaxon asked. “Besides to show up and give expensive gifts to my boyfriend right in front of me.”
“You must be Jaxon. You fit James’ description. Blonde, twinky, pretty blue eyes, and sings like a musical God.”
“Tell me why, Carmichael.”
“Tsk, tsk. A little touchy, aren’t we?”
Jaxon glared at Archie, who had walked to the front row and stood in the center.
“Actually,” Archie said. “I was wanting to see you.”
“Is that so?”
“I know that you must think I’m such a horrible person, but I’m only fighting for James so hard because I love him.”
“What the hell kind of definition of love do you go by, huh? After what all you did to him? He can’t see you without crying. I’m the one who has to comfort him. Dry his tears. Hold him and tell him everything is gonna be okay. I have to clean up the mess you’ve made. That’s love, Archie. I would hurt someone for James.”
“You have no idea how much I regret everything I ever did to him.”
“That’s the thing, Archie. I don’t regret anything I ever did. Because love is no regrets.”
“You know why he cries? Why it hurts him so much, Jaxon? Because he still loves me. And try as hard as you might, you’ll never replace me. You’re just someone to fill the void I left. I will get him back, Jaxon. One way or another. Either he stops lying to himself and comes running back or I’ll fight as low down and dirty as I have to steal him. I will not stop until he‘s mine.”
“That’s the thing, Archie. James isn’t a thing. He’s a person. You can’t treat him like property.”
Archie laughed. “What planet are you from? All boys are property. And most can’t wait to be owned by Archie Carmichael and be his number one boy toy.”
“Why don’t you get lost, creep?” Santana said, walking down the aisle, followed by Brittany.
“I was having a talk with my friend, Jaxon,” Archie said.
“You’re not my friend, Carmichael.”
Santana walked over to Archie, getting up in his face. “Listen, pal, I’m from Lima Heights Adjacent. I’ve learned a few things from over there. I learned how to make a pretty boy not so pretty anymore using just my fist. So, I suggest if you value your looks, because obviously they’re all you got going for you, that you just crawl back under whatever rock you crawled out from. You mess with Jaxon, you mess with me and I will ends you. Got it, Preppy?”
Archie narrowed his eyes. “Whatever.”
“Try me,” Santana said.
Archie looked at Jaxon. “This isn’t over, Jaxon. I’ll be back.”
“I’ll be waiting, Archie,” Jaxon replied.Archie turned around and stormed down the aisle and out the door.
“Yeah, that’s how we do it in Lima Heights,” Santana called after him.
“What are you two doing here?” Jaxon asked.
“We’ve been looking all over for you,” Santana said.
“James has been calling me all afternoon looking for you,” Brittany said. "He says you never met him after practice like you promised."
“I had to come here and clear my mind. I’m beginning to feel like I can’t compete with Archie. I mean, look at him.”
“I did,” Santana said. “And I may be biased, but you’re a lot better looking than Preppy Pants McGee.”
“He and James also have this history.”
“Yeah, history of heartbreak,” Santana said.
“Trust me, Jaxon,” Brittany said. “James loves you. He didn’t call Archie's friends six times.”
“He called six times?” Jaxon asked, raising an eyebrow.
Santana nodded. “Kid’s got it bad for you.”
"Jaxon, you know what you gotta do,” Brittany said. “Go find your man!”
Jaxon smiled. “I will. Thanks, guys.”
James stood in the courtyard, checking his cell phone to see if Jaxon had called. When he saw he hadn’t, he sighed.
James,” Jaxon called from the top of the stairs.
James turned around, a huge smile spreading across his face when he saw Jaxon standing there.
“Jaxon! You’re here?”
“You think I could stay away from you?”
Jaxon ran down the steps and grabbed James pulling him in close to him. He kissed James on the lips, as if he were the only thing that mattered. And to Jaxon, he was.
“Jaxon, Archie will never steal me away from you,” James said as he broke the kiss. “I know you’re afraid, but there is no reason to be. I threw that stuff in the trash. It meant nothing to me.”
Jaxon took James’ hand. “James Christopher Holland, I love you so much. The thought of loosing you kills me. I could never go on without you. You are the air I breathe.”
“I think I’m ready,” James said.
“To give myself to you. I want to.”
“We have all the time in the world and there’s no rush for that.”
“I know. But, I love you and I want to give you the one thing I never gave Archie. Just so you know that you will always be first in my heart. Always.”
“I already know that. When you hug me, when you hold me, when you look at me, when you kiss me. You don’t have to take that step to prove anything to me.”
smiled. “Then, we’ll take baby steps. Work our way up to it.”
Jaxon nodded. “Baby steps. No rush, James.”
The next day at school, I found the photocopy from my journal in my locker. People had came to me and told me they got a copy, too. Apparently Azimio was to blame, according to one student who saw him exit the teacher‘s lounge and stuff papers into all the lockers on that floor. Word had spread like wildfire that I was bisexual and in love with Louis. The whole school knew.
Have you ever had that feeling that the whole school is staring at you? Every step you take, they’re watching you? Undressing your soul with their eyes? Trying to read you? That’s what I felt like. Every since my journal had ended up in Azimio’s possession, everything changed.
Louis wouldn’t talk to me. Everyone looked at me differently. All of a sudden, it was like I wasn’t welcome anymore. Not even among my own friends. I felt like an outsider, staring in the window of a fancy club that I didn’t belong in. Always watching through the glass, but never getting in.
Lucas stopped at the door to the Celibacy club, where Louis currently was. He watched him through the small glass window in the door.
“You don’t know my name. You don’t know anything about me,” Lucas sang. “I try to play nice. I want to be in your game. The things you say, you may think I never hear about them. But word travels fast. I’m telling you to your face. I’m standing here behind your back. You don’t know how it feels to be outside the crowd. You don’t know what it’s like to be left out. And you don’t know how it feels to be your own best friend. On the outside, looking in.”
Louis looked up to see Lucas at the door. He glared at him, turning away to talk to a couple of girls. Lucas frowned, on the verge of tears as he started down the hallway.
“If you could read my mind. You might see more of me than meets the eye and you’ve been all wrong. Not who you think I am. You’ve never given me a chance. You don’t know how it feels to be outside the crowd. You don’t know what it’s like to be left out. And you don’t know how it feels to be your own best friend. On the outside, looking in. I’m tired of staying at home. I’m bored and all alone. I’m sick of wasting all my time. You don’t know how it feels to be outside the crowd. You don’t know what it’s like to be left out. And you don’t know how it feels to be your own best friend. On the outside, looking in. You don’t know how it feels to be outside the crowd. You don’t know what it’s like to be left out. And you don’t know how it feels to be your own best friend. On the outside, looking in.”
Lucas looked up to see himself surrounded by the other members of the Glee Club. He smiled, knowing he wasn’t completely alone.
“We all know,” Evan said. “We saw the papers and we don’t care.”
“We still love you,” Honey said.
“Nothing can change that,” Nicole said.
“And we know what it’s like to feel like you do and how you were singing about feeling,” Jaxon said.
“We all feel like outcasts in ways,” John said.
“Like we’re on the outside looking in,” Kevin added.
“But not matter what,” India said. “Deep down, through all the drama, we care about each other. Even me.”
“And if you’re on the outside looking in,” Rose said. “Then so be it.”
“We’ll be there with you. Right beside you,” James said.
Lucas smiled as he wiped the tears away. “Thanks guys.”
“Group hug,” Bella said.
All the members of New Directions wrapped their arms around each other in a big hug. They laughed as they broke it up.
“I say we go to the choir room for Glee Club and perform a really fun song to cheer up us sad pandas,” Hallie said with a laugh.
“I know a really fun song,” James said.
“Are you thinking what I’m thinking?” Jaxon asked.
“Always,” James said as he laced his fingers through Jaxon’s.
New Directions danced around the choir room, acting as crazy and goofy as possible. But deep down inside, those goofy demeanors masked pain for Hallie, Bella, Jaxon, Lucas, and James. To say that they had been through Hell and back the past week and a half would be an understatement.
“It's been a really, really messed up week,” Jaxon sang. “Seven days of torture, seven days of bitter. And my girlfriend went and cheated on me. She's a California dime but it's time for me to quit her.”
“La, la, la, whatever," Evan sang as he put his arm around Jaxon and James. “La, la, la, it doesn't matter. La, la, la, oh well. La, la, la.”
“We're goin' at it tonight, tonight,” New Directions sang. “There's a party on the rooftop. Top of the world tonight, tonight. And we're dancin' on the edge of the Hollywood sign. I don't know if I'll make it. But watch how good I'll fake it. It's all right, all right, tonight, tonight.”
“I woke up with a strange tattoo," James sang. “Not sure how I got it, not a dollar in my pocket. And it kinda looks just like you. Mixed with Zach Galifianakis.”
“La, la, la, whatever," Miles sang. “La, la, la, it doesn't matter. La, la, la, oh well. La, la, la.”
“We're goin' at it tonight, tonight,” New Directions sang. “There's a party on the rooftop. Top of the world tonight, tonight. And we're dancin' on the edge of the Hollywood sign. I don't know if I'll make it. But watch how good I'll fake it. It's all right, all right, tonight, tonight.”
“You got me singin' like whoa, come on,” Nicole sang.
“Oh, it doesn't matter,” Breezy sang. “Whoa, everybody now, oh.”
“Just don't stop, let's keep the beat pumpin',” John sang. “Keep the beat up, let's drop the beat down. It's my party, dance if I want to. We can get crazy, let it all out.”
“Just don't stop, let's keep the beat pumpin',” Honey sang. “Keep the beat up, let's drop the beat down."
“It's my party, dance if I want to,” Bella sang. “We can get crazy, let it all out.”
“It's you and me and we're runnin' this town,” India sang.
“And it's me and you and we're shakin' the ground,” Rose sang.
“And ain't nobody gonna tell us to go. ‘Cause this is our show,” Lucas sang.
“Everybody, whoa,” Hallie sang. “Come on, oh. All you animals, whoa. Let me hear you now, oh.”
“Tonight, tonight,” New Directions sang. “There's a party on the rooftop. Top of the world tonight, tonight. And we're dancin' on the edge of the Hollywood sign. I don't know if I'll make it. But watch how good I'll fake it. It's all right, all right, tonight, tonight. It's all right, all right, tonight, tonight. Yeah, it's all right, all right, tonight, tonight Just singin' like whoa, come on. Oh, all you party people. All you singletons. Oh, even the white kids. Just don't stop, let's keep the beat pumpin'. Keep the beat up, let's drop the beat down. It's my party, dance if I want to. We can get crazy, let it all out.”
Everyone laughed as they collapsed onto each other for support. In this moment, this Glee Club had never felt more like a family. Will noticed it, too. He looked around at all the kids hugging and giving high fives to each other. All the laughs and genuine smiles. Through everything they had been through, they had emerged triumphant and in one piece. And although he could see the hurt in the eyes of some of them, they still danced and sang like a big happy family.
Will knew deep in his heart that they were ready. They were gonna take Sectionals by storm. Provided they survived the next week. And that they would. Because he was gonna bring to them the most magical of all music. And that’s how he would keep this magic alive.